To Hell With Sleep Training... Maybe

I'm just gonna' buy the biggest baddest king sized bed I can find. We've had guests in for several days so it's obviously been horrible for sleep for the girls. Last night a thunderstorm rolled in around 3:15am and lasted until 4:30ish. Monkey #2 has been up since the first rumble. She napped for about 45 min on my shoulder through breakfast, something she's never done, and is now all discombobulated. So... to hell with it, one more night in Mommy's bed. I'll try to move her later. I got ZERO sleep last night. Monkey#3 is laying transverse across my belly trying to turn I hope. Holy hell is that so not comfortable. Went to nut pill lady today and was happy to hear her shoot down the crap studies I read on the net about Lexapro. So now I start to wean myself off klonopin. The horror. It really is a lot of mind over matter in this case. Just something you HAVE to do. Deal with the panic to bring your baby into this world happy, healthy and able to breastfeed. A little scared but I've been through worse. Goodnight. May you all have your beds to yourselves and may I be able to transfer my girls to theirs without awakening them.

Lexapro... My New Nut Pill

So I've been taken off of celexa and put on lexapro. Please follow this link for information about Lexapro, it's the best site I've ever found and I would really like to own a 'Batshit Crazy' t-shirt if I were about 15 years younger. (this website is not written by a medical professional, this guy is a very well read mentally ill person with an excellent sense of humor and self-professed to be batshit crazy.) To be honest, I already feel better, more relaxed, less panicky and a lot of my panic is so obviously circumstantial now that I've started seeing a psychotherapist. They help, a lot. That light up ahead is getting much brighter. However... the use of Lexapro is discouraged in the third trimester as it can harm baby's lung function (according to animal studies, Lexapro is a class C drug) which, as an asthma sufferer, I wouldn't wish on anyone much less my newborn infant. I'll have to talk to my perinatologist. In his 25 years of experience, class C drugs are given a bad rap and as long as you keep a good eye on baby during pregnancy, the benefits outweigh the risks in my circumstance.